I don't like to describe myself.........lol........ It is bad enough when someone else does it......
So, oh well.... here it goes.....
10 words that describe me....
1. Christian
2. goofy
3. ornery
4. silly
5. forgiving
6. crazy
7. Talkative
8. friendly
9. outspoken
10. dramatic...... (remember our Christmas play Heather and Miranda
Monday, February 26, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
THE LONGEST BLOG.....
This will be the longest blog. This is Stephanie's speech. So if you do not have time, you will not want to start reading....... and you may share a tear or two..... Here it goes:
"Mommy, why are you crying?" says the little girl. "Well honey, I just don't know what to do about your brother." "Do not worry, Mommy! God will take care of it." That little girl was me; never had I dreamed this would happen to me. I understood very little at the time what was going on.
My brother was born with hypoplastic left heart. This means two chambers of his heart were completely gone. His aorta was extremely small; and he had little chance of surviving. In fact chances were so slim that he would need a heart transplant. Every 10 years, you need a new heart transplant, so he would be on a waiting list for a heart all the time. The first year of his life would be filled with three open heart surgeries. Even with all of our technology, this was not a 100% sure thing he would live through his first year of his life, but if he happened to do so, doctors predicted he'd live to be three years old.
Mom and Dad were contemplating; they had so many choices to make. The one big choice they made was not operating, or not going through with the surgeries. My brother lived for three days, and died in my mother's arms. I remember looking up at the funeral at his tiny hands , all cold and purple, his little feet, not even the size of the palm in my hand. I remember all the tears shed. An innocent little boy's life taken, but he made so many accomplishments the three days he lived. Every single breath he that my brother took was an achievement. He felt more love in the three days he lived than what some people feel in a lifetime. Being so young, he was a good example of taking life for granite. He won the race to Heaven, never looking back, he ran hard and fast.
Is it the truth? Yes, my parents chose not to operate. Why operate on a little boy who will only live for three years of his life? Performing such procedures can not only affect the parents, but the child as well. Good parents do not always think about themselves, they think of what is best for their child. If my brother would have been operated on he would basically live at the hospital, why do that to a child? if you can be strong enough and think of what is best for a child, do not put them through life in a hospital.
Is it fair? If you do not operate, in my opinion, it is fair. My parents thought of my little brother they had enough love and strength for my brother to let him go. He would have lived a painful life. My parents would have more stress added to their life. The three days he spent with us my brother was hooked up to a feeding tube that went down his throat because he could not even eat on his own. Why do that to a child? Why make them live a life like that? If you truly love a child, you will think what is more fair th them, and not yourself.
Will it build good will and better friendships? First off, it was God's will. God's will is the only way, if God was ready for him to go, my brother was going to go not matter what, God controls life on earth, and the only way to receive eternal life is through Him. It was God's will, and what God says goes. No technology or doctor will interfere with God's choice. Finally, it brought our family closer together. We united and became dependent on each other. Our relationship as a whole was now refreshed. The love for each other is now endless, and withoud our family's support, it would have been difficult to make it through. Each person in the household had to encourage the others to never stop, but keep on going. Our relationship is now most important.
Will it be beneficial to all concerned? Sure it will. Foremost, it really helped my brother. He died an easy death, and did not have to fight. He died peacefully in the arms of my mother. My mother could not have shown my brother more love and comfort, and he died in the love of my mom's arms. This helped my mom by helping her to fully rely on God and His will. My father also found that in my brothers death, it taught him what a real father was and what he should do. He knew he loved my brother so much; he had to let him go. It showed him the true love he had as a parent. For me, I first learned to become more mature. Instantly, at four years old, I was put in an adult situation. My parents had explained to me what had happened. I knew, but never realized he was gone until the day I saw him in that casket. His feet and hands so clod and purple, I will never forget that moment. I kissed him on the forehead and told him I loved him and goodbye. I would never see him again. It was tough on me as a young one, but I learned how to deal with death. I had someone so close to me leave me; I know he is not really dead, because he is alive in my heart!
The three days he lived, he was an example to all. He was an amazing achievement, and I'll never forget that time I said "I love you bubby" and they closed the casket.
~Well that is it...... see why I am sooo proud :)
"Mommy, why are you crying?" says the little girl. "Well honey, I just don't know what to do about your brother." "Do not worry, Mommy! God will take care of it." That little girl was me; never had I dreamed this would happen to me. I understood very little at the time what was going on.
My brother was born with hypoplastic left heart. This means two chambers of his heart were completely gone. His aorta was extremely small; and he had little chance of surviving. In fact chances were so slim that he would need a heart transplant. Every 10 years, you need a new heart transplant, so he would be on a waiting list for a heart all the time. The first year of his life would be filled with three open heart surgeries. Even with all of our technology, this was not a 100% sure thing he would live through his first year of his life, but if he happened to do so, doctors predicted he'd live to be three years old.
Mom and Dad were contemplating; they had so many choices to make. The one big choice they made was not operating, or not going through with the surgeries. My brother lived for three days, and died in my mother's arms. I remember looking up at the funeral at his tiny hands , all cold and purple, his little feet, not even the size of the palm in my hand. I remember all the tears shed. An innocent little boy's life taken, but he made so many accomplishments the three days he lived. Every single breath he that my brother took was an achievement. He felt more love in the three days he lived than what some people feel in a lifetime. Being so young, he was a good example of taking life for granite. He won the race to Heaven, never looking back, he ran hard and fast.
Is it the truth? Yes, my parents chose not to operate. Why operate on a little boy who will only live for three years of his life? Performing such procedures can not only affect the parents, but the child as well. Good parents do not always think about themselves, they think of what is best for their child. If my brother would have been operated on he would basically live at the hospital, why do that to a child? if you can be strong enough and think of what is best for a child, do not put them through life in a hospital.
Is it fair? If you do not operate, in my opinion, it is fair. My parents thought of my little brother they had enough love and strength for my brother to let him go. He would have lived a painful life. My parents would have more stress added to their life. The three days he spent with us my brother was hooked up to a feeding tube that went down his throat because he could not even eat on his own. Why do that to a child? Why make them live a life like that? If you truly love a child, you will think what is more fair th them, and not yourself.
Will it build good will and better friendships? First off, it was God's will. God's will is the only way, if God was ready for him to go, my brother was going to go not matter what, God controls life on earth, and the only way to receive eternal life is through Him. It was God's will, and what God says goes. No technology or doctor will interfere with God's choice. Finally, it brought our family closer together. We united and became dependent on each other. Our relationship as a whole was now refreshed. The love for each other is now endless, and withoud our family's support, it would have been difficult to make it through. Each person in the household had to encourage the others to never stop, but keep on going. Our relationship is now most important.
Will it be beneficial to all concerned? Sure it will. Foremost, it really helped my brother. He died an easy death, and did not have to fight. He died peacefully in the arms of my mother. My mother could not have shown my brother more love and comfort, and he died in the love of my mom's arms. This helped my mom by helping her to fully rely on God and His will. My father also found that in my brothers death, it taught him what a real father was and what he should do. He knew he loved my brother so much; he had to let him go. It showed him the true love he had as a parent. For me, I first learned to become more mature. Instantly, at four years old, I was put in an adult situation. My parents had explained to me what had happened. I knew, but never realized he was gone until the day I saw him in that casket. His feet and hands so clod and purple, I will never forget that moment. I kissed him on the forehead and told him I loved him and goodbye. I would never see him again. It was tough on me as a young one, but I learned how to deal with death. I had someone so close to me leave me; I know he is not really dead, because he is alive in my heart!
The three days he lived, he was an example to all. He was an amazing achievement, and I'll never forget that time I said "I love you bubby" and they closed the casket.
~Well that is it...... see why I am sooo proud :)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
In Honor of Heath!!!
Get the tissues!!!
This month is usually one of my favorite months! For those of you who may not know or who may not remember, I had a son that was born in between Dallas and Stephanie. His name was Heath. Heath was born February 1st, 1994 and died February 3rd, 1994. That makes this a very special month. Not on purpose but, my beautiful daughter, Stephanie made me soooo proud tonight. In the same month of Heath - Stephanie delivered a very touching speech. She had written the speech on her little brother. I could not have honored him better myself. She gave the speech for a contest at Teays Valley High School. She explained about his hypoplastic left heart (the reason for his death), the decision by us not to operate, but most important..... she explained how it was all God's will! She even stated that all the technology in the world could not save him, only God and that was not God's will!
This event tonight was a speech contest.... and yes..... Stephanie won!!! Now she gets to go on for a regional competition and they also want her to deliver the speech 2 weeks from now to the Rotary Club!
I am sooo proud of her.... not only did she honor her brother but she did it while honoring her God..... Well done Steph....... Congratulations and well done..... I love you!
(maybe sometime soon, one of us will blog, the speech! If you think you would like to read it)
This month is usually one of my favorite months! For those of you who may not know or who may not remember, I had a son that was born in between Dallas and Stephanie. His name was Heath. Heath was born February 1st, 1994 and died February 3rd, 1994. That makes this a very special month. Not on purpose but, my beautiful daughter, Stephanie made me soooo proud tonight. In the same month of Heath - Stephanie delivered a very touching speech. She had written the speech on her little brother. I could not have honored him better myself. She gave the speech for a contest at Teays Valley High School. She explained about his hypoplastic left heart (the reason for his death), the decision by us not to operate, but most important..... she explained how it was all God's will! She even stated that all the technology in the world could not save him, only God and that was not God's will!
This event tonight was a speech contest.... and yes..... Stephanie won!!! Now she gets to go on for a regional competition and they also want her to deliver the speech 2 weeks from now to the Rotary Club!
I am sooo proud of her.... not only did she honor her brother but she did it while honoring her God..... Well done Steph....... Congratulations and well done..... I love you!
(maybe sometime soon, one of us will blog, the speech! If you think you would like to read it)
Monday, February 19, 2007
FOOD!!!
Finally a top ten that I can actually do!!!! I love food.... lol Let's see now I have to decide which one's are my favorite!!!! That could be difficult.... hmmm let's see
Here it goes:
1. chimichanga's at El chico's (yummy)
2. chicken taco's at chipotle (crunchy ones with tomatoes and cheese) and of course chips on
the side!!!!
3. sweet and sour chicken and many other chicken recipes from chinese buffet
4. teryaki chicken sanwich at red robin and their fries are awesome!
5. burritos from margaurita's in pensacola fla.
6. enchilada's from taco bueno, abilene tx.
7. chocolate cake with chocolate icing.... LOL
8. t-bone steaks grilled on a bed of misquite briquets.... salad and baked potatoe on the side.... back home!!!
9. sopopilla's with honey
10. nacho's with jalepeno peppers from dairy queen
So that is some of my favorite foods!!! LOL.... I know I cannot lie... I love mexican food! lol
I hope it was detailed enough for you!!!
Here it goes:
1. chimichanga's at El chico's (yummy)
2. chicken taco's at chipotle (crunchy ones with tomatoes and cheese) and of course chips on
the side!!!!
3. sweet and sour chicken and many other chicken recipes from chinese buffet
4. teryaki chicken sanwich at red robin and their fries are awesome!
5. burritos from margaurita's in pensacola fla.
6. enchilada's from taco bueno, abilene tx.
7. chocolate cake with chocolate icing.... LOL
8. t-bone steaks grilled on a bed of misquite briquets.... salad and baked potatoe on the side.... back home!!!
9. sopopilla's with honey
10. nacho's with jalepeno peppers from dairy queen
So that is some of my favorite foods!!! LOL.... I know I cannot lie... I love mexican food! lol
I hope it was detailed enough for you!!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
VALENTINES DAY???
O.K. so I am admitting it! Valentines day is not my favorite holiday! I don't really have anything against it, it just is kind of pointless.... I mean .... I think there is something really wrong, if you have to have a "day" to remind you to show Love to someone... I mean as christians, shouldn't everyday be valentines day? We should show love everyday! What if people had come to Jesus and said, "Will you help me?" and he said, "Nah, it's not valentines day!" I don't know.... just got me thinking....
I hope you all have a wonderful Valentines Day..... just remember the day after to make sure you tell everyone you still love them....lol <3
Maybe we can make more days that we show REAL love..... not flowers and boxes of candy...
Boy do I sound like I hate Valentines Day....LOL.... I really don't .... just that these thoughts were occuring to me....
I heard Anthony Thomas was loosing like lots of money today due to the weather..... The travisty is that they may have to throw away chocolate covered strawberries.......... NO WAY!!! Throw them to me....lol
Have a great Valentines Day <3
I hope you all have a wonderful Valentines Day..... just remember the day after to make sure you tell everyone you still love them....lol <3
Maybe we can make more days that we show REAL love..... not flowers and boxes of candy...
Boy do I sound like I hate Valentines Day....LOL.... I really don't .... just that these thoughts were occuring to me....
I heard Anthony Thomas was loosing like lots of money today due to the weather..... The travisty is that they may have to throw away chocolate covered strawberries.......... NO WAY!!! Throw them to me....lol
Have a great Valentines Day <3
Monday, February 12, 2007
Geez..... This is a Hard top ten!!!!
This is going to take some thinking..... The truth is.... I am always doing something stupid, so I learned to accept it.... I don't get too embarassed.... so, I will try.... Maybe I can think of things you guys don't know about me.... hmmm....
Well here is my attempt.....
1. The time I tooted in front of Miranda at church!!! LOL .... (that was for you Amy)
2. When Dallas was younger and we were shopping for VBS stuff, (of course with Miranda) we were at the Advocate.... Christian Bookstore in Circleville, when he said a "bad word".... I just knew we were gonna get kicked out....
3. When Stephanie dialed 9-1-1..... and of course I just knew it could not have been her....
4. When we were at Butler Springs Christian Camp and we were going to eat with Josh Finklea and Foundation Red and we were walking to the cafeteria and I tripped and almost fell!
5. I worked for a couple of orthodontist out East and they had a big Christmas party for their staff every year. I wasn't sure where to go and this girl I worked with was following me to the restaurant. I pulled the car over and got out to talk to her, when I realized as the door closed that I had left my keys in it.... with the car running!
6.When my kids found a picture of me when I was about 10yrs. old and I had on red and white checked shorts with red and white striped knee high socks!
7. My first "female exam"!
8. When I had Stephanie and I didn't know that my water had broke.... I thought, I had wet the bed...
9. I was in high school when I went to get a perm..... So, my friends talked me in to letting the cosmetology department at school, perm it.... Man what a Bad afro!!!
10. When I was younger, I was very self conscious and did Not have any self esteem!
Well, the list could go on and on but, I will spare you.... I just learned to be me and not worry about it.... I just laugh with everyone else when I do dumb stuff now! I think it is who I am LOL... It happens so much, that if I still got embarassed.... That is all I would be! :)
Well here is my attempt.....
1. The time I tooted in front of Miranda at church!!! LOL .... (that was for you Amy)
2. When Dallas was younger and we were shopping for VBS stuff, (of course with Miranda) we were at the Advocate.... Christian Bookstore in Circleville, when he said a "bad word".... I just knew we were gonna get kicked out....
3. When Stephanie dialed 9-1-1..... and of course I just knew it could not have been her....
4. When we were at Butler Springs Christian Camp and we were going to eat with Josh Finklea and Foundation Red and we were walking to the cafeteria and I tripped and almost fell!
5. I worked for a couple of orthodontist out East and they had a big Christmas party for their staff every year. I wasn't sure where to go and this girl I worked with was following me to the restaurant. I pulled the car over and got out to talk to her, when I realized as the door closed that I had left my keys in it.... with the car running!
6.When my kids found a picture of me when I was about 10yrs. old and I had on red and white checked shorts with red and white striped knee high socks!
7. My first "female exam"!
8. When I had Stephanie and I didn't know that my water had broke.... I thought, I had wet the bed...
9. I was in high school when I went to get a perm..... So, my friends talked me in to letting the cosmetology department at school, perm it.... Man what a Bad afro!!!
10. When I was younger, I was very self conscious and did Not have any self esteem!
Well, the list could go on and on but, I will spare you.... I just learned to be me and not worry about it.... I just laugh with everyone else when I do dumb stuff now! I think it is who I am LOL... It happens so much, that if I still got embarassed.... That is all I would be! :)
Friday, February 09, 2007
HERE I AM!!!
Well, once again..... I know... you thought I disappeared! But.... NO... Here I am! LOL... It has been very busy.... We had to go prom dress shopping! Then there were the many snow days!!! YAY.... but, I had to try to catch up on housework! YUCK! Dallas... well he got to go back to school on Thursday but, then he got sick Friday so it was a really short week for him!
Sooo any ways.... I'm late but, here is my top ten for this week!
Top ten things I am a sucker for:
1. chocolate covered pretzels, no wait..... chocolate covered strawberries, ok.... chocolate and diet coke.... LOL>>>>
2. my kids
3. kids in general
4. Mexican food
5. my friends ;)
6. my family
7. Lost... lol
8. a good chick flick
9. a beautiful sunny beach!
10. my preschool
As I made this list I have to admit that I was ashamed of myself..... Honestly, I wanted to put my God and my church.... But, I couldn't..... Those are things that should be top..... but, those are things that even though I don't intend to they get put on the backburner!!! grrr..... (sorry, frustration with myself) I guess I will just have to try harder to be a bigger sucker....LOL>>>
Well, I hope everyone enjoyed the snow..... I hear we have more coming! (maybe more snow days Amy...;) Everyone take care and have a great weekend!!!
Sooo any ways.... I'm late but, here is my top ten for this week!
Top ten things I am a sucker for:
1. chocolate covered pretzels, no wait..... chocolate covered strawberries, ok.... chocolate and diet coke.... LOL>>>>
2. my kids
3. kids in general
4. Mexican food
5. my friends ;)
6. my family
7. Lost... lol
8. a good chick flick
9. a beautiful sunny beach!
10. my preschool
As I made this list I have to admit that I was ashamed of myself..... Honestly, I wanted to put my God and my church.... But, I couldn't..... Those are things that should be top..... but, those are things that even though I don't intend to they get put on the backburner!!! grrr..... (sorry, frustration with myself) I guess I will just have to try harder to be a bigger sucker....LOL>>>
Well, I hope everyone enjoyed the snow..... I hear we have more coming! (maybe more snow days Amy...;) Everyone take care and have a great weekend!!!
Friday, February 02, 2007
OK.... SO I'M LATE....
Sorry guys!!! This time of year my life gets a little crazy!
So, If I had enough money to do basically whatever I wanted to do.....
1. Help missions! Robert Hartman, Rana and Simi Samuels, Holt International and I would find out what Josh Finklea needed to help him with his ministry! Or even better what would it take to get him to be our youth minister!
2. Hire the South African Dance Team "13th Floor" to perform for local schools.
3. Help Pickaway in every way God would want me to :)
4. Pay off the house and get a new one so Dallas could have a bigger bedroom. I would also, have to buy a house for my sister in law and nephew to live in!
5. Pay college tuition for both kids....
6. Get new cars....
7. Tell Dan to quit his job and do something with computers...
8. Buy Stephanie a gorgeous prom dress :)
9. Have a Home Theatre in my home so.... I could invite the girlz over for movie night... lol
10. Take a cruise to Hawaii :)
Alot of mine are silly, but I don't know that I could ever really be rich.... I don't think I would know how. I grew up without alot of money, I don't have money now.... and hopefully not too much would change if I did.... I like being simple.... Sometimes things we think would be wonderful have tooo many problems we don't think of to go with it! It is fun to dream.... It is just hard for me.... When it comes to money, I don't know if I could ever have alot.... I would feel to guilty and have to find a way to give it to someone else.... So I guess I am doomed to be poor! LOL....
So, If I had enough money to do basically whatever I wanted to do.....
1. Help missions! Robert Hartman, Rana and Simi Samuels, Holt International and I would find out what Josh Finklea needed to help him with his ministry! Or even better what would it take to get him to be our youth minister!
2. Hire the South African Dance Team "13th Floor" to perform for local schools.
3. Help Pickaway in every way God would want me to :)
4. Pay off the house and get a new one so Dallas could have a bigger bedroom. I would also, have to buy a house for my sister in law and nephew to live in!
5. Pay college tuition for both kids....
6. Get new cars....
7. Tell Dan to quit his job and do something with computers...
8. Buy Stephanie a gorgeous prom dress :)
9. Have a Home Theatre in my home so.... I could invite the girlz over for movie night... lol
10. Take a cruise to Hawaii :)
Alot of mine are silly, but I don't know that I could ever really be rich.... I don't think I would know how. I grew up without alot of money, I don't have money now.... and hopefully not too much would change if I did.... I like being simple.... Sometimes things we think would be wonderful have tooo many problems we don't think of to go with it! It is fun to dream.... It is just hard for me.... When it comes to money, I don't know if I could ever have alot.... I would feel to guilty and have to find a way to give it to someone else.... So I guess I am doomed to be poor! LOL....
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